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Every year it’s the same story for me (and others I’m sure)…. it’s birthday time and I’m just not in the mood for a party.  Even when I try to make things simple it seems like it just doesn’t “go my way”.  It’s really no one’s fault but my own.  I just can’t have fun at my own “party” lol I can have fun at anyone else’s though.

This year several things weren’t on my side.  First of all I was on call.  If you know me at all you know that I loathe being on call.  I’ll be in a horrible mood basically the whole time I’m on call.  So that wasn’t helping matters…. but just to make sure I didn’t have a good time mother nature decided to bring me a gift for my birthday 3 days early.  SWEET! lol It’s just one of those things.  So in all honesty if I had done what I really wanted to do this past weekend it would have involved me, my pjs, tcby shivers, and the sofa.   BUT of course I didn’t know that was how I would feel until I had already made “birthday” plans… dinners out and drinks with friends etc etc.  So I was basically moody for most of the time.  Which sucks because I do appreciate all my friends and family that celebrated with me but I’m sure I didn’t seem like I did. 

ah the birthday funk.

My job has turned me in to a mean untrusting person.  Everyone is a liar and everyone will stab you in the back if you turn around.   I’m so tired of having to be mean.  I feel like a b****h most of the time.  The problem is as soon as you are nice to someone they walk all over you, give them an inch and they take a mile.  Sometimes I just want to scream why can’t people just do what they are told?!  Is it THAT hard to just do it. No it’s not. 

I have to watch my words at work because when I’m talking to a tenant about something in their apartment or whatever it may be it’s like they remember every single word I said and will later use it to turn it on me to make whatever “hardship” they are in MY fault.  I didn’t make the hot water take above your apartment explode… therefore it’s not my fault your carpet was saturated with water and we now have to keep fans in to dry it up.  If YOU would leave the dang things on, maybe we could speed up the process of getting them out once the carpet was dried.

I know it shouldn’t be that big of a deal and I shouldn’t feel bad about having to get “stern” with people.  But I have the type of personality that tends want everyone to like me…. I don’t like making anyone mad or uncomfortable…. yes I say what I think but I generally try not to hurt anyone.  So I suppose that is why I feel so incredibly uncomfortable when I have to deal with people in a “mean” way to make them do what is best for them.  And I know it’s good for me to have practice doing that and maybe that’s why God has placed me where I am… and hasn’t allowed me to leave…. I’ve asked.  I’m pretty sure it was a resounding NO for the moment.

I still don’t like being mean.   I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo looking forward to having a vacation in Memphis where I don’t have to worry and stress.

So yeah…… I haven’t had a chance to write a blog in a while because I don’t really think about doing it when I’m at home because I don’t want to pay for Internet and work has been a wee bit crazy to say the least.   And my constant fight with pollen hasn’t helped much either.  Basic recap of the past 3 weeks after I fell and got a new fridge…. I had one week left with out sweets and it was surprisingly easy til I got to Saturday and all I wanted was ice cream…. I was good… I waited til midnight to have it. Easter Sunday started out well and ended with me feeling rather sickly.  I think I passed out on the couch for about 2 and a half hours.  It was that sleep that just made you feel even more sleepy every time you woke up all you wanted was more sleep.  So I allowed myself to be a little lazy.

I wasn’t feeling any better that next day either.  I got a variety of meds to help with the “sickness” and started feeling better around Wednesday… well that is until I thought it would be ok to ride with the windows down.  It was like my sore throat and achey body came back with vengeance.  I finally broke down and took the claritin D which makes me feel crazy but also helps me feel better in other ways.  By Friday I was praying for rain… anything to give me some sort of relief.  And it did… it poured Saturday.

I’m still fighting the pollen considering it’s already made another thick layer of green/yellow nastiness on my car.  I can only imagine what is hiding out in my sinuses.  I’ve taken to using a netipot(which I think is awesome… something to clean out your nose with..who would have thought?!)  and taking showers nightly to get any pollen that is attached itself to me off.  I avoid being outside for extended periods of time which is going to be hard this next weekend because of the music festival…. I’m taking all the meds I own with me. haha 

Another new thing I’m going to try is eating at least a spoon full of locally made honey.  Several years ago a friend told me that was supposed to help with colds and more recently a co-worker said it has helped with her son’s allergies.  So I figured it can’t hurt to try it.

I’m considering allergy shots….. however that will be a process considering I haven’t been tested in over 20 years soooooooo that will involve a lot of poking and prodding and I’m not looking forward to ANY of that.

If anyone else has any suggestions of ways to combat allergies that doesn’t involve pills I would love to know!

Also my birthday is this Sunday I’ll be the ripe old age of 28!

It’s been a long week so far.  It started out not so good.  Let me start with Sunday.  Jeremy decided to come over and we had lots of good plans of walking downtown… well we get our walking shoes on and head out only to realize that 1. the pedestrian bridge is closed for construction and 2. the wind is crazy.   We stay out in the windy cold weather as long as we can handle it.  We start walking back to his truck and this mighty gust of wind blows dirt and sand in our faces so we can’t see and some how I trip either over his feet or my own and go falling to the ground.  I knew my knee had got the brunt of the fall so I roll up my jeans to take a look and sure enough it’s skinned and starting to bleed and the bruise is already showing. As you can see…. it doesn’t look so good.   I took that picture Tuesday night so it had healed a little bit.  I’m just hoping it goes away before it officially warms up!  A skinned knee is usually not an accessory a girl wants with her new dress.  Anyway so that happened Sunday. 

And then there was Monday…. At work (I work at an apartment complex) we have had to put these trays under all the hot water tanks, just the ones on the second floor in a particular area… well mine just so happens to fall in to that catergory.  They started on mine that morning… Now I’m sure it sounds easy, all they have to do is insert a tray underneath the tank, what’s the big deal right?  Well they have to shut off the water and drain the tank before they can do anything because those things are heavy… it’s 40 gallons of water!  And to make matters worse the closet that the hot-water tank is in is just ridiculously dusty and dirty, so the maintenance is having to also vacuum out this closet as they drain the tank to move it.  Well I come home around 11 for lunch and I walk in to a cloud of dust.  I have some serious allergies and I do my best to keep them at bay… I’ve bought air purifiers, I take medicine, I shower at night so I can get the pollen and allergens out of my hair, I use a netipot… I do what I can.  So when I see what is going on I am livid.   To make matters worse they have cut all the water off… so really what is the point in me trying to eat lunch at home?  So I leave.

Later that day I come home to the biggest mess of dust I have ever had to contend with.  So I start cleaning… but the more I clean the more dirt and dust I find.  Actually let me backtrack a bit…. Last Thursday I realize that my ice maker is no longer making the ice… so I ask maintenance to work on it when they can and that was something else that was worked on that day (Monday).   So back to cleaning… I’m having to clean off all the counters and cabinets and well everything… it’s all COVERED in dirt.  (as a side note I found out that the guy who was vacuuming everything out had his shop vac too full and that’s why it was so nasty in my apartment…. thanks guy.)  I decide to turn my air purifier on high because I think that will help.  About 20 minutes later it smells like something is burning, so I turn the purifier down, but I’m still smelling it… mostly in my kitchen.  Something tells me to look in the freezer.  I open up the freezer and everything is thawing out so I quickly start moving all my frozen foods to the empty apartment across the hall and when I come back there is just water everywhere inside.  The bucket that the ice is supposed to fall into is full of water, the ice maker then starts to sizzle and smoke and I put my hand on top of the freezer and it is extremely hot.  I’m freaking out and call the maintenance that lives on property and she comes over to help shut it all off, we end up moving all my food next door and having to turn off the breaker and unplug the fridge!  It was nuts!  One good thing that came out of it is that I did get a NEW fridge   So I took a picture of it.  It’s a little shorter than the old one, but it’s also deeper so I guess that makes up for it.  I’m just glad it works! 

That was all my craziness for the week.  Hopefully I’m done with crazy!  I shouldnt’ speak too soon though….. I am on call. eek!